Dedicated to Brian
to my little angel brian!
today mommy was reading a couple of nursery ryhmes and i thought of you. I thought of how much i would love to sing those ryhmes to you!Holding you in my arms really tight ,and singing the songs with much love! I miss you so much. i also love you with all my heart.and to me..even though your not with me,, your still my baby... and i feel as if your with me in spirt and soul. Words cant express how much sadness i have beneath my heart.and i will always remember you. today a friend named yahaira, had her baby girl, She is the one that got pregnant a couple months after me. I wish you would be here so you would play with her kids. Brian..mommy loves you so much, im sure your dad too, Your dad keeps calling me..but mommy doesnt want him back because i know its not the best thing.. I just hope he finds happiness.. wherever he goes and whatever he does. I still feel something for him, but maybe its because he gave me something special which was you.. Baby, I have a picture of this baby that i think you might of looked like, everytime i look at him.. it reminds me of you! today i was pictureing your eyes, and how beautiful they are! That baby blue color, like the sky, and blue sea. I was looking at your clothes.. and.. i remembered that you would be 6 months by now. How i would love to put those clothes that i bought for you with lots of love. I try not to cry, but i cant help it, God knows how much i love kids, and.. you dying broke my heart in peaces, Brian, I can picture you sleeping like an angel, your beautiful angelic face will always rest in my mind and soul.... brian... i love you..i love .you ..i love you! My little angel from heaven. I wish that you would come down in my dreams.. if only i could see you for only one day,that would make me feel soooo happy, even if its only a dream. My heart crys and aches, because your not here with me,love you!
your mom that will always love you!
I Heard The Angel Say
I thought I saw your face today,
in the sparkle of the morning sun.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
Their work on earth is done."
I thought I heard your voice today,
then laugh your hearty laugh.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
There's peace dear one at last."
I thought I felt your touch today,
in the breeze that rustled by.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
The spirit never dies."
I thought I saw my broken heart,
in the crescent of the moon.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
The Lord is coming soon."
I thought that you had left me,
for the stars so far above.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
They left you with their love."
I thought that I would miss you so,
and never find my way.
And then I heard the angel say,
"
They're with you every day."
"
The sun, the wind, the moon, the stars,
will forever be around,
reminding you of the love you shared,
and the peace they've finally found."
