John Keats to Fanny Brawne
March 1820
Sweetest Fanny,
You fear, sometimes, I do not love you so much as you wish? My dear Girl I love you ever and ever and without reserve. The more I have known you the more have I lov'd. In every way - even my jealousies have been agonies of Love, in the hottest fit I ever had I would have died for you. I have vex'd you too much. But for Love! Can I help it? You are always new. The last of your kisses was ever the sweetest; the last smile the brightest; the last movement the gracefullest.
When you pass'd my window home yesterday, I was fill'd with as much admiration
as if I had then seen you for the first time. You uttered a half complaint
once that I only lov'd your Beauty. Have I nothing else then to love in you
but that? Do not I see a heart naturally furnish'd with wings imprison itself
with me? No ill prospect has been able to turn your thoughts a moment from
me. This perhaps should be as much a subject of sorrow as joy - but I will
not talk of that. Even if you did not love me I could not help an entire
devotion to you: how much more deeply then must I feel for you knowing you
love me.
My Mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it. I never felt my Mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment - upon no person but you. When you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always concentrate my whole senses. The anxiety shown about our Love in your last note is an immense pleasure to me; however you must not suffer such speculations to molest you any more: not will I any more believe you can have the least pique against me. Brown is gone out -- but here is Mrs Wylie -- when she is gone I shall be awake for you.
-- Remembrances to your Mother.
Your affectionate, J. Keats